So I'm finishing up my master's degree in music technology. This website and upcoming album are my capstone project. I have really enjoyed learning how to make music. I feel a little late to the game, but that's okay. As I've been thinking about what's next - a few things come to mind. Fear is a big one. The idea of trying anything new makes me feel a little too vulnerable, and I'm terrified of absolutely failing.
But what does failure look like?
To know what failure is, I guess I need to know what my goals are. What I want to do.
I know what I want to do, but I'm often scared to say it out loud because I really don't feel like I'm skilled or talented enough to pull it off. I find myself comparing my abilities to people who have been in the industry for decades. I'm a noob. Who would want to work with me when there are so many other better options?
Well, I'd like to work with me. Cause I'm nice, I'm collaborate, and I'm here to explore the process with people who are a little less new to this world than I am.
Here's my dream: I own a small studio for small music projects, podcasting, and long-form audio like audiobooks. It's a small place, very welcoming, and people feel free to explore what they want to do there, with no judgment. Along with that, I create music that hopefully gets synced, and maybe even one day a big time artist will sing one of my songs. That's it. It's out there.
So I guess failure would be the following:
- never trying
- trying but getting no clients
- losing a lot of money
- looking dumb
So the big question is should I risk it? Should I open myself up to failure or just keep my desk job?